N.Y. State of Mind

"New York, New York, Big city of dreams, BUT EVERYTHING IN NEW YORK AIN'T ALWAYS AS IT SEEMS" - Dogg Pound

No truer words have been spoken, N.Y.C is the Muthableeping hate/depression/wishyoubad/Takeyoudown/Crabinabucket/Fronting capital. I haven't been many places in the world, but the few places that I've been the people have always been courteous, nice, respectful, overall happy spirit. Not here in this city, you would think with all the attractions we have here, unlimited restaurants, shopping, just so much to do people would find more constructive things to do than to sit around and Hate on the next person. I've always wondered if people knew/realized the energy they've wasted gossiping about person a could've used to develop a new idea, create a revolutionary gadget anything. No not here people walk around salty mad at the world all day here.

How can Philadelphia be the city of brotherly love and N.Y.C is Less than a Hour and half drive away and no love be shown here. New York often know as the big apple should be changed to rotten apple. Nobody here wants anybody to do well/succeed. It's a mentality like if I'm fucked up you should be fucked up as well, No F that I worked hard for what I have you should do the same. The problem with this city is that too much accessible for people so they never have the need to work hard, so when you do good it's like hey man what the hell are you doing? Your not supposed to be succeeding, come back down here to failure with us. You see it all the time with music stars from the city, Rapper A. Succeeds and old friends come out the wood works with "exposure" details about how rapper A didn't do this and that, all because old friend wasn't supplied with any money.

In NYC people to seem to feel like they are superior to everyone because of where we from, We feel we dress, talk, carry ourselves better than anybody else in the WORLD, while I agree with something about NY swagger, Attitude and respect are something each and every NY'er needs to work on severely, I was trying to get over on the highway yesterday and I had to wait a good 2 Min's to get over because a person with North Carolina Plates let me in. New Yorkers are always in a rush to get no where, Let that same situation had happened In Virginia or Maryland and I would've been let in instantly.

The sad Part about the situation is I hate this city so much, But too scared to move anywhere else. Biggest contradiction ever I know, I know the majority of people fear change, however I may or may not be one of those people, I don't want to bash this place and say that I would never come back and move else where and end up coming right back. I honestly know that I need to shake this place and Move but will my heart let me. I feel like a domestic abused woman it's like I know He(Rotten apple) is bad for me but I continue to stay and take the abuse cause I figure that HE will one day change.....